I was born and raised in Canada which I dearly love. I was raised into a conservative Muslim Sunni family where homosexuality is out of the question wrong and a sin.
I always knew that I was a lesbian since I was a kid and I knew that it was wrong. I have always prayed to God(Allah) to heal me and ask him why did he make me into a lesbian and not into heterosexual. For many years I rejected my sexuality and tried to live a normal life and avoid the LGBT community because I was guilty and ashamed of being a lesbian. When I turned 18 I knew that I was a lesbian and I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I 'm still trying to accept my homosexuality. It isn't easy because I felt like I didn't belong in the LGBT community in my city because there aren't any Muslims who are LGBT in my city . I liked attending the inside out youth group at Calgary's Outlinks at which I meet some people, friendly people. There are times when I feel so alone about my sexuality and the way my religion views homosexuality. I know Allah (God) is with me. I pray that one day the Muslim community can wake up and realize that homosexuality does exists in the Muslim community everywhere in the world and that some Muslims are not heterosexual.